Psalm 119:32

"I run in the path of your commands,for you have set my heart free."


Clean clean clean

So at most of my jobs I am cleaning. Cleaning bathrooms, kitchens, name it, I've probably cleaned it. But at home (rather my parents home) I just don't feel too much like cleaning, because I have most likely been doing that all day other places. But in order for me to feel relaxed I need a good clean environment. When I was younger I had this weird habit of cleaning my room spotless before bed. I dusted, cleaning the mirror, made my bed if it was messy and even vacuumed. I thought I was just ocd, but I think now that it is just part of who I am. Like this morning I cleaned the kitchen before making breakfast. I like the idea of starting fresh. Being able to breath when I am about to do something I enjoy doing. Unfortunately everyone isn't this way as well. I know like what my mom said when I was younger, "clean up as you mess up" it really does make things seem less chaotic.

Harses, harses, harses, that movie!

...You got it....well "you've got mail" actually! I love that movie...Hannah Parish you've got it, can we switch our movies back? :)

Ok so I have no idea where or what the Lord has for my future (like after summer camp). But I do know that I am well I guess the best word to describe me is diverse! I have had experience these past 2 years in a great many different things.
Sooooo, the other week Joe called me asking if I would fill in for a work boss that was going to be out of town for 2 weeks. What work crew may you ask? Horse crew! Ok just much do I look like I know about horses? I ride and love a good western but, ok well he said I just had to supervise the girls, they would know what to do. I was actually flattered that he thought to call me. I guess I look like I can work hard. And BOY did we work hard. Cleaning stalls, moving hay, shoveling tons of manure...I was busy busy and smelly too! So know I have just one more thing to add on the I have had experience in this list. Horses. Oh and I have been riding more too. Summer, Karen and I went on a looong ride last sunday...I think I am still a little sore. It's been fun to be around horses and stuff. I see why there are cowboys. Oh and I have to admit it made me want to fufill my childhood dream of becoming a farmer too...bwahahahhahahahaha! but true story.

Mi Jhoncito

                                               FELIZ CUMPLEANOS A MI JHONCITO!

Today is Jhon's 3rd how much he has grown in the past year and a half since he came to the albergue. I remember he wouldn't walk, talk, play, or let anyone hold him. Now he is spelling, singing, like to be read to, we were learning a little english when I was there, he helps with the laundry, plays with others, and loves being around people! He is like a bright ray of sunshine shining down through sky on a cloudy day. Everyday we were together he brought joy into my soul. When I had a bad day he always could cheer me up! His little laugh or just the way he said "Tia Susanna" made me smile. Oh what a precious gift from God. He had a rough beginning but things have gotten better, and I know that God will make them even better as he grows! There isn't a day that passes that I don't picture that sweet little boy's face, or hear that joyful voice in my head. I pray for him often. Would you pray with me for this dear gift?

Pray that:
-He would continue to love the Lord even at such a young age I know he loves the Lord
-he would learn more and more about Jesus Christ who is his saviour
-the people in his lives would raise him up in Truth and lead him down a path of righteousness
-he would get along with the other boys in his house
-he would help Jose Luis and the other kinder kids feel at home at the albergue
-i pray that he would get a family one day who will love and appreciate him in all of his ways!

                                      He loved to be tickled after bath time and wouldn't let me put on his

I really want to go back and visit this precious child...mi Jhoncito. Te quiero tanto y te extrano bastante!
Besitos y abrazos
 con carino, tu Tia Susanna


I have decided to post a little information on the kids that I worked with in Peru. Just some ways to pray for them. Hopefully this will be a weekly/bi-weekly thing!


Abraham is in the Tesoros house, the oldest boy in that house. He is dear friends with Italo taking care of him and teaching him all sorts of things. Sweet Abraham, a helper in the house and often overlooked and under appreciated. He is up to learn all kinds of new things. Photography, guitar, american football (you should see his throw!), futbol, art....the list could go on and on! He is TALENTED!

Please pray with me that:
-he will grow in his relationship with God
-that God will place godly men in his life especially during his teen years
-that he will become a godly leader and be watchful of what he does (there are lots of little eyes around)
-that he will be noticed for the good things he does and has done in his life
-that he will continue to pursue new things and continue to develop his talents
-A FAMILY....this boy NEEDS a family.

"...with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26


Not my life, but yours oh Lord.

Wow how awesome is our God!I had a day full of Him. He was everywhere I went, I was surrounded by people that love Him and want to live passionate lives for Him. He really slowed me down, spoke to me and shook my world upside down for the gazillionth time! Ah I love MY FATHER!

This afternoon and evening I got the chance to spend some time with a family who adopted a boy from the Ukraine and is on their way in 12 days to adopt a teenage girl now. It is beautiful. What hearts they have. Compassion for these kids, once orphans but now have families thanks to the Fumia family! The Lord has blessed them so much and has pushed them, fought with them about this, and helped them through it all. He has changed them in great ways. Ah it is amazing what he has provided for them, what faith they have! Sorry if I am not making too much sense, I am overwhelmed at what is going on, and it isn't even my life!

So 2 things God has taught me today (I already know these but He has to keep beating me over the head, I am stubborn).

1. DO NOT WORRY SUSANNA- This morning in church I was fidgiting with my fingers worrying about what job I would have in the fall. He tells me this:
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Luke 12:22-24
As I talked to some ladies tonight He just confirmed that I need to live my life in the now and not worry about what is to come. Look what he has done for me so far, and to think about what he will do in the future, he WILL provide. I needn't worry.

8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. 10 Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. Psalm 143:8,10
I have been living for me. When who gave me life? God, should I be living selfishly no, but I do. My prayer tonight is Lord, take my life, I surrender all, it is yours. Let your will be done. Everyday let me give up myself to live for you in all ways.

At the end of the evening we were talking about a missions trip to the Ukraine and I felt like this could be something. As I got into the car every sing I heard on Klove, He used to speak to me. Surrender your life, it is not your own, you are just one person, but one person can do big things, I love you, you are mine, my child. The Lord is leading me into missions, orphan missions, I don't know what is going to happen but He is moving! He is working in my heart and life. I am excited to see what happens! Please pray that I would know this week if he wants me to go on this trip.

*check out the Fumia's blog!

Fads go out like the tide....often.

Ok my post has nada to do with the title, I just couldn't think of anything good.

So those of you who are around me will know (maybe some of you you aren't as well) you will know that I still talk (a lot) and am impacted by my year in Peru. Hogar de Esperanza was my home, if I went back today it would be like returning to a home away from home. I made friends with people who will always be there for me (even far away), I have mentors and children there. It is home. So, therefore, I cannot get it out of my head, night or day. I often day dream about being there, thinking that the kids are just around the corner. But I often, very often dream about it at night. I have these vivid real life dreams about the kids, my friends, co-workers, and our lives together. I wake up in the morning shocked to see my sister's bed in the room with mine, realizing I am not in Peru after all but at my parents house in the US.

My church has decided to do these "faith promises" where we outside of tithing also pray for and/or support a mission that is connected to our church. There have been a lot of promises made for this year! I have been struggling with making one because financially I am not doing so good, but I know that is where the faith part comes in. Pastor Alex wants us to have that faith to give what we are not sure that we can give, because God will provide. But another thing is I don't know much about any of these missions (as I have been gone off to college and Peru the past 6 years) so I wouldn't know who to give money to.

All of this to say, last night I had a dream that I signed a paper saying I would give $25 a month to Hogar de Esperanza this year, and in my dream I wasn't making any money but God wanted me to support them. I didn't think much about it this morning as I woke up or even throughout the day, but just a minute ago I got an email (the church body did) about the "faith promises" that were made. I have decided that God does really want me to step out, have faith, and watch him help me as I give even a measly $25 a month to Hogar. I know it isn't my church related but I really feel this is what He wants me to do this year. I pray that He would give me the faith to promise this amount every month and more in the future. Those kids and adults made such an impact on my life, I hope I can return the favor in this small way!

Luke 6:38 "Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”

He will give us rest.

I don't know why but for some reason I am restless. I am satisfied with most of my life at the moment, but tonight I am feeling restless. Almost like if I could hurry time along...but for what? I have no idea. Maybe it is my future so unknown making me weary and restless. My mind is constantly jumping from subject to subject like a kid who had ADD. But not just my mind, tonight I couldn't seem to completely pay attention to one thing or person for long periods of time, my ears where picking up others conversations distracting me from my own. Restless. Fidgety. Becoming weary. I would like to go run right's dark out and cold...not to mention unsafe.

I really enjoy these verses, and want to give God my restlessness. because i sure don't want it anymore.
Matthew 11 " 28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” 

Here is verse 28 a song by KARI JOBE

Come to me, you weary one.
And I will give you rest.
I will give you rest.
Come to me, you weary one.
And I will give you rest.
I will give you rest.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Take me upon you, I will give you rest.

Come to me, you broken one.
And I will give you peace.
I will give you peace.
Come to me, you broken one.
And I will give you peace.
I will give you peace.
I will calm your waters, and I will whisper,
"Peace be still."
Take me upon you, I will give you peace.

Come to me, you burdened one.
And I will give you joy.
I will give you joy.
Come to me, you burdened one.
And I will give you joy.
I will give you joy.
You will rise like eagles, and my joy will be your strength.
Take me upon you, I will give you joy.

Come to me (x3)
I have been waiting for you here.
He has been waiting for you here.
Come. Come to Him.
Come and find your peace.
Come and find your rest.
Come and find your joy.
He is waiting here for you.
He is waiting here for you with open arms,
To hold you, to embrace your heart, to love you.
He is waiting here. (x2)