Psalm 119:32

"I run in the path of your commands,for you have set my heart free."







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Bah!

Agh! Bah! Grrr!
That's how I feel right now. I am waiting, thinking, deciding and alone on what to do with my life. And I feel trapped! (in this small town with nothing to do, and in this house all by myself).


I sometimes just want to SCREAM! but i am the only one here so it seems kind of ridiculous to do that.


So i am swimming and cleaning and cooking a lot to make my life seem like it has some kind of meaning, until i can get a job. but i am still teaching sunday school which is awesome! so i have that to look forward too!

-feeling stuck.
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Wait...wait? Wait for what?

Now that I am looking at it the word wait is an odd looking word. Oh well.

I was talking to some friends one night during camp and we were talking about what we all were doing/ thinking of doing for this next year. Job wise. We all were in the same boat. Lots of different options, but we all wanted to go and do what God wanted us to do. I had been looking at different schools to work at all over the country and was telling them about some of my options. When I got home that night, God had different plans.

I was reading my (bilingual) bible in the book of Psalm and EVERYTHING I read screamed, "Susanna, what are you doing? Just WAIT on ME and MY perfect timing." So it was double time with Spanish and English... I just sat there, stunned. I didn't know what to think. Time, I thought, was running out, I needed a job asap! But God knew differently.

These are all from Psalm.
37:7 Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him...
37:34 Espera en el SENOR y guarda su camino, y El te exaltara para que poseas la tierra.
39:7 "And now, Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You."
40:1 Al SENOR espere pacientemente...
40:4 How blessed is the man who has made the Lord his trust.

So I took a week after camp to "wait". God didn't think that was long enough. So now after a month I am still waiting. Here this though, I am being active, not just sitting around saying, "Okay Lord, I'm just a waiting send me a job." I think we should be active waiters. I have given my resume to several different people from New Mexico to Honduras. I am teaching Sunday School at FCPC for girls grades 4-6 and I love being involved there again! So here I am waiting on the Lord and what He has in store for my life. Patiently waiting. (but can I wait here bc this is a really cool couch!)